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Thursday, September 21, 2006
Going to school in Hawaii entails going to the beach, hiking to waterfalls,surfing, Kitboarding, cliff jumping, rope swinging all after school and camping on the weekends. It sounds to good to be true, but its just not fulfilling. Intellectual conversations are at a minimum. interesting, descent boys are non-existent. Taking 20 credits doesnt leave me with enough free time to accomplish everything that I want to do. So time to find out what brings me happiness in life and the objective is to attain it. What will fill that emptiness inside? What am I passionate about?
I joined the campus crusade again, hoping fellowship through religion would fill that void. I was welcomed with judgment, bias, and a wide array of boring people who just want to talk about feelings. I was accused of not being christian enough to lead the community outreach team (aka social coordinator of the gang) and the truth is, its not that much fun.
Im learning how to kiteboard, an exciting yet etremely dangerous sport that takes dedication, time and money. Im not willing to commit all of that right now, so thats sputtering to a slow halt.
I just want to travel. Im trying ot go to Australia next semester, but the only location that my university goes to is Adelaide, which was recently compared to as the Idaho of Australia. Yee haw... This may not be the place for me.
Ive been working as a babysitter and street performer, just making enough to pay for the car bills. Its just a repeating cycle and im bored. Life needs a change of pace or im going to have to kick it into motion!!
Current music: They call me Mellow Yellow
Thursday, November 17, 2005
The straight-"A" student that I once was is just a blur of the past. What happened to my record of only two "B"s in my life? The better question is why dont I care anymore? I strived my entire life to get great grades and for what? Im at the University of Hawaii where the average GPA is 2.0 and I am for once not the vicitim but the receiver of affirmative action because I am the minority. My classes are so easy that I dont do the mundane, tedious work and instead go to the beach everyday. Im getting Bs and Cs and really dont care. Who was I trying to please before? Why am I not trying to please that person now? Midterms are here and finals are just around the corner. I better pon las pilas ("put in the batteries", a weird spanish expression)and get back into character. I kinda like being a rebel, not going to class, not doing work and procrastinating until the last possible second.
Mom and Dad are coming on Friday for 18 days. Thats over 1/24 of a year! Am I suppose to entertain them everyday? What will we do? What will we talk about? That much time with my dysfunctional family might not be the dream vacation taht they are expecting. For Thanksgiving I am invited to a local girl's house. A local Hawaiian that is! Her family is really laid back and live aloha (love). We will see how my parents cope with this culture clash. I will have to warn them not to dress in suits or crazy aloha shirts that mock the Hawaiian heritage. My parents are borrowing a convertable while they are here. How are the humble Hawaiian going to respond to some mainlander lawyers, dressed up driving in a convertable? I just hope theres cranberry sauce. That will make my day complete.
Im dying to go home but I dont know why!! I dont really miss my parents, the house, the cat or the car. All my friends are at college and arent home anyway. I think I miss the coldness. The snow, the lake, the scenery. Im just dying to go home! Not for a long time, dont get me wrong, I love Hawaii, but im craving the snow and cold weather. I miss driving to 7-11 and going to Raleys and seeing the same people everyday. I miss good food and a comfy bed and the TV! After coming here my perspective on important things has changed. I though I needed a car. Then I learned that a bike will take you where you need ot go. After having my bike stolen twice I realized it wasnt worth crying over. What possessions do I really need? Then I though I just need the posessions that stories and memories attached to them. But then I lost my Tifanny's bracelet in the ocean. The one that my sister gave me four yrs ago that I DIDNT wear to school because it WAS the cool thing to do, that I secretly loved and wore whenever I could without letting it be seen by the private school girls. I was depressed but realized I dont really need any of my possesions. I would be a pretty good bum I think. I just need a blanket, some food and a nice beach to lay on. Give me some seaweed to eat and a 97 cent floaty from wal-mart and im content.
Monday, November 7, 2005
I'm getting old. I just turned 19, thats 1/4 of my life gone. With the advancement of medical technology it will become 1/5 of my life, but truthfully I dont want to live much past 4/4 (80 some). I know im getting old because I go to the beach everyday and I dont want to dig a hole or get burried in the sand. I still try to build a sandcastle on a weekly basis, but I dont really enjoy it. i just do it to try to savor my juvenality for as long as I can. By the age of 7 one of my childhood friends was already too old to dig holes at the beach. Now shes an old stick-in-the-mud and doesnt know how to act like a kid. Shes only 18 too. Thats pretty young to be old and boring. How can I remedy this? Is it a part of life I must accept or can I fight it?
My solution: I ride my bike to the beach everyday. I play frisbee and volleyball. I want to go snorkeling and skydiving and rockclimbing and have fun. I want to go run in the sprinklers and eat chocolate ice cream by the pool and roughhouse with friends. If I day dream about these things I will get old. I must act! My number one issue is finding other young souls. Everyone is getting too old and doesnt want to play. I have to bring my self joy. I cant rely on others to make me happy.
How I stay young:
I hulahoop everyday. (87 cents at Wal-mart)
I wear my snorkel mask for fun in my room sometimes.
I wear my snowboarding beanie in hawaii. Everyone thinks im a kook!
I skip to class sometimes and skip class sometimes :)
I play dress up with my self. (Today's theme is pretty pretty princess)
Im getting achy and feeble at the age of 19. Dont get old, fight the disease, get a hulahoop it helps.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Tomorrow is halloween!! I had plans to dress up as Jane jetson. I bought a cute, purple, 1940s dress at the thrift store and sewed it to fit me, and cut it short. Now I kinda look like a plum in it. The Jane Jetson idea just isnt going to work because I dont really have short red hair. Its kinda long and brown, so forget that. My new plan is to be a 1940s girl!! A little simpler. Im going to deck my self out in pearls that my lovely sis sent me for my bday and wear white gloves and of coarse my plum dress. Ive never NOT been trick or treating in my life. Will this be the first. He in hawaii everybody dresses up then goes to the strip (in waikiki) and walks around staring at all the freaks in the street. I will be one of the freaks too, so that will be fun. I'll report back on the trick or treating later. Hasta luego amigos, kk
Friday, October 28, 2005
My bike was stolen...again!!!??? Yes last week it was stolen, but I found it, in distress. I locked it up and to my surprise it was gone again this morning! I didnt cry. Wal-mart bikes dont deserve my tears. I already wasted a good cry on that bike. I loved it. I've spent countless hours repairing, trading, and stealing baskets for that bike. It was amazing. I must remember life sucks sometimes and I cant get to down about that.
In Hawaii news: its a beautiful day of 80 degrees. Partially cloudy. Todays high 81 and todays low 79. Ive been going to the beach everyday for the past two and a half months. Ive missed three days so far. (My bike is my means of transportation, this may put a cramp on my beach going). Im starting to get white spots on my back. Am I getting sun cancer?! I bought 30 sun block yesterday, so I am better prepared to conquer the sun now. I bought a short board surfboard so Im hoping to become a surfer chic. I really dont enjoy surfing taht much. Its a lot of work to get the board to the beach, paddle out, wait, wait and wait some more then paddle in and ride the board back on the bike. the bright side: there are some cute surfer boys ive met and it gives me a chance to contemplate a shark biting my legs off. I bought a kite so I can start kitesurfing. Thats where you have a huge kite that pulls you on a board over the water. My kite is 11m wide. Now I just need an amazing kite teacher, im on the prowl.
Summer plans: I had a plan to buy an around the world ticket for summer. Id start in LA go to Hawaii in january, then in may continue to hongkong, italy, new york (stay there for two months with my sister Larkin) then continue to Lake Tahoe then back to Hawaii. Sounds like a cool trip. Funding is a small problem. The parental units will pay for a ticket home, not around the world. So looks like I will have to work a bit more. I work once a week on the streets of Waikiki. No im not a streetwalker, im a street performer. I play my saxophone and beg for money. Its ana awesome job. I meet a lot of crazy people. This one old japanese guy on a bike sports the neon yellow vest an occasionally breaks out the cow bell and shakers for my backup music. he doesnt want my money. He just wants to jam. Thats love for music. Im starting to sew purses with aloha print. Hopefully I can sell these to the rich japanese tourists for an outrageous price :) That would sure help the deficit in the around the world ticket funds for Kristen. Until the next amazing story...love, kk
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Im 19 years old as of yesterday. The birthday got rained on litterally and emotionally. It didnt compare to last years wild party and getting the parents arrested. I had a beach BBQ with 20 members of the campus crusade for christ. It was a very tame party, I'll put it like that. Today I walked down to the bike rack and discovered that my baby (my black walmart cruiser) was stolen!!!! I was bawling...really. I cry over stupid things. later I found it!! It was in distress sitting on the other side of the bike rack 20 meters away. THe pedal is broken and the handle bars are a bit tweaked. So I guess I shouldnt be so trusting and leave my bike unlocked.
No serious romances in my life. today I went shortboarding for the first time ever! Its tough and frustrating.I bought kiteboarding gear so in about a months time I should be semi-pro. Hawaii is a vacation. Im not learning much, my clases are a joke, but its a great vacation. I go to the beach everyday and play beach volleyball. I do homework occasionally. Man why am I complaining...life is good, really good. Come visit me sometime. I want visitors and have a free place to stay. Aloha for now, Kristen
Current mood:  mischievous
Monday, November 8, 2004
Hola yo me llamo Kris. Today the journey begins with livejournal. Will I write it, or will it write me? My life is overwhelming at the moment, but I try to make life a game. I go on missions like James Bond...I'm Spees, Kris Spees.
Mission #1 > 11/06/04
The question (asked by a senior girl at IHS): How does a girl get a boy, (who is not interested in her), to like her?
The bet: The girls have made a bet with me> I must hook a boy, selected by them, who is completely uninterested in me
The catch: He's gay, this will be a toughy
My mission: get a gay man to want me, (someone completely uninterested in me to like me)...How to do it is the question. Is it possible, I doubt it, but I want to win the bet!
Current mood: giddy
Sunday, November 7, 2004
KRISTEN HAS AN LJ NOW!!!!!
WOOOOOOOO!!!!
Current mood:  feliz Current music: none
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